He's been traveling for his job lately and you haven't seen him since the day he picked you up from the dentist. At least you can leave early if it gets too unbearable.|gotoWork]]<>2: Head into work. You wanted to tell her how much you love her, but you couldn't make the words come out right and ended up sounding defensive instead.\n\nAs you lay there next to her now, you trace your fingers across her arm just lightly enough to not wake her. The thought of opening up to a complete stranger and telling them such private things while they sit there taking notes is completely overwhelming. She continues:\n\n//Many people find adding a pharmacological element to their treatment to be very helpful, and some even prefer to take drugs, completely eliminating their need to visit a therapist at all, providing you rely on your support network and are still reaching out to people. She offers to go back to your apartment with you, but the two of you end up talking in her car for two hours as the words just pour forth from you.\n\nAmanda seems unsure of what to say at times, but she listens and rubs your back as you sob and talk. They turn and begin to strike up a conversation with you.\n\n"Oh hi. "//, you think.\n\n[[Next.|couchPotato]]\n\n<>
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<>\n\nThe thought of picking up the phone and calling someone about this right now is overwhelming. You ask her what's new and she launches into telling you all about all of the activities around the house, what friends of the family have been up to, and a tangent about how she's desperately trying to get your father to eat more healthily. \n<>, WORDS WORDS WORDS\n\nYou open up and she suspects you have depression, citing that her mother has it and sees a therapist. They want to see you succeed, and don't know why you haven't gone farther in life yet because you're "so smart and talented". You feel selfish for trying to reach out to him while he's busy in the first place - he's always so busy and he's an important person to so many people. Shake off your funk and go have a good time with your girlfriend.
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<>\n\nYou agree to go, even though you're really not feeling social. \n\n//"Thanks for putting up with me,"// you say, staring at the TV without actually watching it.\n\nShe sighs in response.\n\n[[Next.|amanda]]\n\n<>
, It's a dry fall morning.\n\nYou grab your morning coffee and sit down at your desk to check your email. What's up?\nattic: oh good you're there\nattic: um\nattic: i just found out i got cheated on\nattic: i don't know what to do\nYou: Oh no, that's horrible!\n\nThe two of you talk for a long time, and you lend a shoulder to your friend. While you were surprised when you started at how good it felt to actually work on something you were passionate about, lately you've found it hard to muster the energy to really care about even this.\n\n[[Back.|workIt]]. Tell her you don't think it's a good idea for you right now.|dontmoveIn]]\n[[3. If you are suicidal, please stop playing this game and visit this link to talk to someone. \n\nThe goal of this game is twofold: firstly, we want to illustrate as clearly as possible what depression is like, so that it may be better understood by people without depression. Exhausted, he departs for bed and thanks you for being there to talk with him.\n\nAs you close the IM window, you feel horribly sorry for your friend, but happy that you were able to help. You flip on the TV and let yourself get swallowed up by the couch. I hope this doesn't freak you out, and if you feel like things are going too fast just tell me. \n<>\nYou realize that you're being irrational, and should try and pull your head out of these thoughts lest they pull you under their current and ruin the night. If you are currently suffering from the illness and are easily triggered, please be aware that this game uses stark depictions of people in very dark places. You have a habit of doing this - you're often so convinced that you are weird and terrible and that any invitation to hang out will end in disappointment for those inviting you. \n\n//"Well, I mean..."// you start, but are unable to try and think of how to answer. They'd be crazy not to give it to you! "// she replies, her usual response to when you thank her for the simple things you cherish. "// Malcolm asks. To your mild surprise she begins this session by breaking her characteristic Therapist's Silence and begins speaking up right away:\n\n//I wanted to start by saying I think it's great that you decided to come see me - it's an incredibly important first step,// she begins. It's an entirely different situation for it to be something she has to live with alongside you. "// She turns to you, frustration wearing on her face. This game is not meant to be a fun or lighthearted experience. \n\nYou imagine Alex, out with her friends, much like you would be tonight if you weren't so horrible at socializing. \n\nattic: you're up late again i see.\nYou: Yeah. <>You know she's giving you the advice that makes sense to her, and genuinely wants the best for you, however she doesn't understand that it's not as simple as somehow deciding to be positive or work harder - it's that those things aren't viable options because of these feelings.<>Despite knowing she means well, the feeling of nagging alienation creeps into your brain and you regret bringing it up. \n\n<>Things with Alex have become more and more strained. You're still skeptical about all of this, but figure you might as well see where this goes. Things are fine. A new message pops up in your inbox almost as soon as you do. Now, you're not really sure what you want to do, and you've felt like you're lacking the ambition or drive to figure it out. 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